Wednesday, October 16, 2013
I Still Remember...
So for the last many months I have been talking to and helping a dear friend who has decided to place her baby for adoption. I feel it an honor that she would turn to me for help and guidance but at the same time my heart aches for what she is about to do... It has been 3 1/2 years since I placed my sweet Sarah for adoption and as the time draws closer for my friend to have her baby the emotions of that day flood my memory and heart. I still remember the first moment I looked at her beautiful face and saw that head of black hair, I remember when they placed her in my arms for the first time and I could feel her precious little body breath and move... I remember every little face she made and how it felt to have her cuddle into my chest for the first time. It was such a beautiful and heart breaking day. I can remember holding her and thinking to myself "how am I ever going to be able to give her over? I love her so much!" then I remembered that is the exact reason I WILL be able to hand her over. I loved my daughter so much I was willing and wanting to do what ever it took to give her the life I knew I couldn't give her at that time and place in my life. I remember feeling like there was no amount of pain that would be too much if I could only see her truly happy. With a mother and a father who would love, protect, teach, guide and listen to her... My precious Sarah has all of that an so much more. Seeing her happy is what healed my pain and heart ache. I was able to move on with my life because I knew what I had done was right. The below picture is of when I got to hold Sarah for the first time.
Posted by RosiesKisses at 11:33 AM